Sunday, January 15, 2012
Meet my beautiful, amazing and hilarious little Cameron. Everyday we get a glimpse at his blossoming personality. So far we know that he loves to eat, hates to sleep and cries with so much passion that at times no sound comes out! Yep, just a wide open gummy mouth, bright red face and huge rolling tears. Hilarious! Really- it really is funny and just so darn cute. He knows exactly what he likes and doesn't like and will tell you about it with grunts, grumbles, squirms and even sarcastic little looks. He is not shy nor meek and will definitely be a strong willed, active little boy! Good luck to us!
Each day I remind myself to just stop and take a second to take him in. To take time to remember him in that moment and cherish it. Everyone knows you get caught up in the whirlwind and while you've got your head down just trying to make it through you can miss it all so I make sure to just breathe, be thankful and remember.
Often I find myself tearing up just thinking that one day he will walk away from me. From his first steps, first day at preschool, graduation to walking down the aisle I am acutely aware that he is perpetually moving away from me. While it makes me sad, it's not a bad kind of sad but a melancholy, wistful kind. Walking away is a good thing. It means he's moving forward, growing, living and enjoying what I hope to be a full and amazing life. So while it tears at my heart to think that one day he will leave me, I am grateful to have the time with him that I do, proud to call him my son, lucky to just get a chance to know him and happy, just so happy.
So that's what I've been up to for the last three months. Just recently he's gone to feeding every 3-4 hours so I've actually found myself with a little time on my hands! Hopefully now I'll be able to spend more time updating my blog.